its done

i am broken.
just not in the way i thought.

He disappears as suddenly as He appears,
His absences grow in length
cool memory placid and smooth,
almost like He was never there at all.

My body resets its physical memory
my skin forgets to need His hands
i forget to need His direction.

He has decided not to claim me, i belong to Him
and i don't. i am
good enough for diversion, not
necessary to keep.